This Time of Year

People laughing full of Christmas cheer

Some people haunted by this time of year

The past hurts us more than we’ll ever know

Memories return we just can’t let them go

 

Family and friends who have sadly passed on

The feelinngs of love, they’re never gone

Wanting to hold them with a loving embrace

Oh to have that chance to stand face to face

 

People who are lonely fighting back the tears

Drowning their sorry thoughts in spirits and beers

That’s not the answer, the escape is short lived

They don’t want sympathy, just the time you can give

 

Children watching their friends with the best toys

Desperately searching inside for their broken joys

Parents over spending forcing themselves in debt

Not realising the bank will never forget

 

 

Our hearts go out to the Christmas advert on tv

Plucking at our heart strings hoping that we’d all agree

This year a penguin and a football match in no man’s land

The power of advertisements, the power of the brand

 

Christmas day, a full table with an empty chair

A place set to show how much we always care

A time for reflection, love and peace

A time for all the fighting finally to cease

Walk Away

You know how I feel about you, that was never in any doubt

We knew it would be difficult but we would never scream and shout

Our love grew stronger throughout the times, both good and bad

I always thought we would survive because I knew the love we had

 

Every time I looked at you or held your hand so tight

I always felt the luckiest man and it always felt so right

I never thought the day would come when we walked a different path

I never thought I see a frown where I once made you laugh

 

You had a choice that you had to make, I was always going to lose

I didn’t think that your family would ever make you choose

I understand although it’s hard but what will be will be

You tried hard to compromise but your family wouldn’t agree

 

I gave my loving heart to you and it will always have an open door

We cried at our decision and couldn’t believe what we had to endure  

I wish you love and happiness and in my heart you’ll always stay

But I’ll never forget that moment that I had to walk silently away

Four Walls

Another holiday season upon us

Gatherings commence

Shopping becomes such a fuss

Spending every pound and pence

 

Arriving back home to an empty house

The coldness fills the air

Haunting silence broken by a mouse

Scurrying totally unaware

 

These four walls become my friend

Speaking intensively

My thoughts I begin to surrender

Listening comprehensively

 

Another day over, back at the wall

My hopes I gladly invest

Praying silently that I won’t fall

These walls they know me best

Foolish Love

Thought that this was a sign sent from heaven above

Who would have thought that I would eventually fall in love

The moment I saw you I didn’t need a second glance

Just enough courage inside to think that I had a chance

 

I don’t think I ever believed in love at first sight

But the moment you came into my life I knew it was right

That warm sensation that I have just hearing your beautiful name

Would be great to play doubles for once and leave the single game

 

But my love and affection you didn’t really want to see

You played me like a fool but you didn’t want to hurt me

Again I’ve been a fool who thought that this time it would be true

I thought I found something special I thought it was you

 

I thought meeting you would be the final piece of my life jigsaw

Most parts of my life feel so rich but my love life is still so poor

Do you only have one chance of meeting the right person for you?

I honestly believe that I’ll never meet anyone who is as special as you

A shadow on the street

Unseen as you walk on by

Cast aside, another social lie

Life at rock bottom but what do you care

Too busy to notice, not even a stare

 

The coldness of day echoes in the night

The sleeping bag cold, zipped up tight

Tired, alone another night of no sleep

Life’s cruel mountain has become too steep

 

Not sure how or why I ended up here

I once was full of Christmas cheer

Now no loved ones, no-one to kiss

It’s the simple things in life you miss

 

My body shakes from the cold within

My once padded jacket is wearing thin

Unable to find the strength to move

Unable to get out of this downward groove

 

My body sore, I’m not in good health

Our lives judged on power and wealth

When you’re out look down at your feet

Please be aware of the shadows on the street

Cosy Nights

Dark nights settled in

Sunshine wearing thin

Rain tapping the window frame

A warm glow hearing your name

 

fire burning, flames flicking

night beginning, clock ticking

Wind howling in the cold air

Seeing you I can’t help but stare

 

Hot chocolate, steaming cup

Dog barking, next door’s pup

Our bodies wrapped together tight

Hands together feeling just right

 

Hearts warm, eyes meet

Chocs open, perfect treat

Kiss goodnight you are the best

Dream big, try and get some rest

A Dash of Colour

All I ever saw was the world a wash with grey

Then you walked into my life that fateful day

Your beaming smile graced your perfect face

The greyness gone, the world now a colourful place

 

The trees that once looked so dour and lifeless

Suddenly perked up with leaves and brightness

Swaying silently in the breeze as you walked on by

You make me feel like I’m the luckiest guy

 

The orange torch shone like it’s never shone before

Creating the prefect shadow of you, once more

A blossoming red rose in your hair took centre stage

The colour that was once trapped has escaped the cage

 

Now you are in my life I see the world completely different

Will you be the one to break my unknown fear of commitment

My eyes once only saw the greyness, gloom and the black

But now I have found colour, thankfully,  I won’t be going back

Pawns in a Dangerous Game

The usual gossip about teacher’s holidays and pay
They never seem to mention the 14 hour day
The bureaucracy involved each day at work...
Drives you round the bend, it drives you berserk

Every government moving the goalposts just once more
Teachers trying to keep up with the ever changing law
A new curriculum, a new initiative and a new agenda in mind
Wish they would leave us alone but then they’re not that kind


Expecting children to make the same progress every year
Pressure, pressure, pressure teachers teaching with fear
Everything focused around the core subject rule
Government not valuing an all round creative school


Teachers not being allowed to do what they do best
Another policy passed, please give it all a rest
Mountains of paperwork not effecting the child
Missing lunch, as more paper work needs to be filed


Government officials observing every move you make
Giving a judgement on performance, a career at stake
Outstanding teachers leaving the profession all feeling the same
Teachers believing they are pawns in the government’s dangerous game

Accepting Defeat

I honestly thought I didn’t have a chance

But what I would give to have one more dance

The room would empty leaving us on the floor

If love is an illness then this would be the cure

 

However I won’t have that moment at all

For my advances have hit the invisible brick wall

I looked into your eyes and I knew I would fail

But you, my love, will always be my holy grail

 

It’s time for me to move on but not sure I can

It hurts so much to see you with another man

Linking his arm and laughing at his joke

My heart didn’t melt it just simply broke

 

Which way to turn I honestly don’t know

One thing for certain I’ve hit another low

This is my attempt at accepting a defeat

Hoping that one day my heart will again beat

Fairytale Adventure

Princes and Princesses and dragons from the east

All thrown together to fight the undefeated beast

The adventure takes place in a far away land

Mountains and forests and untouched sand

 

Some royalty involved with a King or a Queen

The black night suffers from being a has been

A quest or a journey takes us to another place

Time running out, for the return is now a race

 

A bridge to cross, the rapids too wide

The night closing in, need somewhere to hide

A problem occurs, a twist in the tale

The quest looks doomed, certain to fail

 

The music begins, the hero’s on his way

Trying desperately to win and save the day

The beast killed, the princesses heart is won

Now that’s how a fairytale adventure is done

She Doesn’t Know

Chorus
She doesn’t know how she makes me feel
She doesn’t know this love is real
She doesn’t know my heart she will steal
She doesn’t know at all


Verse
How can I make her notice me
What you get with me is what you see
She’s got the looks and the personality
She’s let my heart go free


Verse
One day I hope you will be mine
The sun won’t set just continue to shine
There is no one else there is no line
Give me a loving sign


Bridge
You have beauty on the inside and out
The most beautiful girl in the world no doubt
But you don’t know it at all


Verse
The attraction she gets from other guys
I may be a sinner but I’ll tell her no lies
Every time she smiles my heart simply flies
She is my ultimate prize

The Loneliest Man

The quiet thoughts no one hears

Long nights remembering my worst fears

Waiting silently for the sun to rise

Telling more people more happy lies

 

The darkness appears the thoughts set in

No-one to share the false clown grin

Another face for another crowd

Inner loneliness screaming out loud

 

No-one to listen, the crowd have all gone

A thousand people now I stand just one

Like a pebble stranded on a clear white beach

It seems this pebble is silently out of reach

 

The night awaits the loneliness begins

Another night were loneliness wins

Loneliness a drug I would love to ban

Alone writing the loneliest man

Slipped Away

The feeling of emptiness in my soul

My emotions lost, way out of control

Unable to sleep, night rolls into day

Why on earth did I let you slip away?

 

A leap into the unknown worth the risk

The moment passed, the exit so brisk

A future of happiness awaited us both

This, my love, was my eternal oath

 

The clock ticked, the time ran out

Why did I have this internal doubt

I suppose that’s the price you have to pay

I’m so sorry that I let you slip away

Back to square one

Ever had the feeling that you’ve been here before

Asking the same questions and knocking on the same door

Just when you’re thinking there is light not too far ahead

A circumstance happens that unexpectedly  fills you with dread

 

Chorus

Back to square on

Right back to the start

Life was going well

Now it’s been blown apart

 

Jumping over hurdles and running round the track

Carrying life’s weight, the heaviest load on your back

A door slightly opens and you’re ready to go inside

Then the door slams shut and you shoot down life’s slide

 

Bridge

Craving for a helping hand

To help you out of this sinking sand

 

One last chance before you finally give up the ghost

Don’t want to go down that path as you want it the most

Trying to keep your chin up not letting it get you down

Just treading water when you fear you will drown

Perfect Girl

I never knew you existed

I only saw you in my dreams

My nightmare of relationships

Now my life finally gleams

 

I still can’t believe my luck

That I can see you everyday

I didn’t think it would happen

I just continued to hope and pray

 

I don’t use perfection alot

But in this case it’s definitely true

My love grows stronger everyday

There will never be another you

 

You walk like a catwalk model

Gliding on the pavement side

When I saw you, my heart stopped

I thought I’d actully died

 

Amazingly, you don’t really know

How beautiful you really are

You see the good in everyone

You are the shinniest star

 

I didn’t think I could change

But this feeling deep in my soul

This excitement feels strange

My heart you’ve certainly stole

 

I wake up early every morining

Run around like I’m in a race

Excitedly waiting for that moment

When I can see you perfect face

Tonight I realised

Standing there watching the couples pass by

Quietly holding hands in the moonlit sky

Surrounded by thousands and yet I stand alone

Waiting for that text, never arrives on my phone

 

Chorus

Tonight I realised that our love was strong

Tonight I realised what I did was wrong

Tonight I realised I want to be together

Tonight I realised I want to be with you forever

 

I want to be the one who looks into your eyes

Wiping the tears when your weeping heart cries

Picking you up when you’re feeling abandoned or lost

For my love for you doesn’t come at a cost

 

Bridge

Moving away was the price I had to pay

Why didn’t I realise I needed to stay

 

When I return home I’ll be in your arms

Surrendering to your candlelit charms

My mistake forgotten, it’s time to move on

Now this two can finally be one

Unlucky Girl

My time has run out

He’s moved oon to someone new

He didn’t look back

That was my cue

 

Chorus

I’ll never stop hoping

That you’ll change your mind

Nover stop dreaming

But life’s not that kind

 

Trying to move on

My heart strings pull tighter

Loves heavey load

Ain’t getting any lighter

 

Searching for something

Something I don’t know

Which way to turn

Which way to go

Thunder and Lightening

Walking hand in hand

My heart skips a beat

I can feel your hearfelt pulse

The world at my feet

 

Chorus

You crashed into my lonely life

Thunder and Lightening

Love at first sight

This moment frightening

 

Your fingers though my hair

Our lips touch light

Together as one

The embrace feels right

 

I’ve opened my heart

I’ve let you in

If loves against the law

Then I’ve committed a sin

Moving On

Trying to convince myself

This is easy to do

My mind thinking thoughts

That all come back to you

 

Chorus

Everywhere I go

Everything I do

Everyone I see

Just reminds me of you

 

Crying doesn’t help

Makes things worse

Have I been struck

By a simple love curse

 

Thought I saw you

Just the other day

Didn’t know what to do

Didn’t know what to say

Eyes for another

I can’t even explain

So I won’t begin to try

This feeling inside

When someone else catches your eye

 

I’ve given you my all

But you don’t see me

What will it take

To set these loving feelings free

 

You saw someone else

Who caught you roaming eye

We have our friendship

And I won’t continue to try

 

Life can cruel

I was told by my mother

I’ll keep searching

As you have eyes for another

A Lost Friend

An argument out of control

Words said with no real goal

Not backing down, nose out of joint

Misused words with no real point

 

Best friends with nothing to hide

Slowly hurting our dented pride

Words said that we now regret

An argument started, one to forget

 

Turning back the ticking clock

We used to joke, we used to mock

Laughter not returning to our face

Friendship lost that we can’t replace

Keep Running

I keep running away from you

From the feeling of pain

You know you what you did

And it’s driving me insane

 

I keep running to hide my tears

Frightened that someone will see

The internal anguish

I just want to be free

 

I keep running to the unknown

Hoping to change my life

Forget all the past

All the trouble and all the strife

 

I keep running out of my mind

Trying to move on

Slowly moving forward

Won’t be happy until you’re gone

A Soldier’s Distant Love

I know you made the choice

We knew it would be hard

But how I long to hear your voice

A phone call you are barred

 

How I miss the simple things

Like walking hand in hand

Pulling on my heart strings

Know one understands

 

A letter through the post

Is all that I receive

Two weeks seems longer than most

Your love is all I need

 

Fighting for our freedoms

Is a job you have to do

Fighting against the demons

A penance they are due

 

I want you back here and now

Is my selfishness wrong?

If there is an easy way, how?

My love will forever be strong

Sun Records

I couldn’t believe I was standing

In the spot were you once stood

I couldn’t believe I sat at the piano

My god it felt so good

 

The décor reeked of success

From the stars that continue to pass through

Legends of the music world

Some old and some very new

 

I can’t begin to imagine

The fun you all must have had

So much talent in one small room

And ‘The Million Dollar Quartet’ wasn’t bad

 

Chills sent down my spine

As I grabbed the microphone

I felt I was living the impossible dream

In some previous twilight zone

 

I thanked my lucky stars

As I left that special place

Visiting a piece of music history

And a smile across my face

Thinking of Others

As winter approaches and Christmas draws near

Some people have no-one they have lost their cheer

A helping hand can be all that they need

Make someone happy and do that good deed

 

(Chorus)

Thinking of others at this Christmas time

Playing games with strangers, singing festival Rhymes

The community working giving all that they can

Bringing together every woman and man

Thinking of others this wonderful Christmas time

 

A little boy at school who doesn’t believe in Santa Clause

Never given a present, there’s been a greater cause

Like having hot water, and food on the table

Doesn’t know the story about the baby and the stable

 

Everyone let’s celebrate and show people that we care

Make sure everyone’s involved let’s have no-one spare

Take someone’s hand and show they’re not all alone

Make someone’s day and call them on the phone

 

It’s not what you buy or it’s not what you receive

It’s about helping others, those that are in need

Trying to survive day after day

Hoping to provide this Christmas Day

 

Chorus

(Repeat with Children’s Choir?)

Mr Gascoigne

Growing up watching football

You played the game with style

Laughing and joking on the field

Beating opponents with your guile

 

You were England’s greatest hope

Famously crying during the world cup

Lineker saying ‘Have a word’

Please Mr Gascoigne don’t give up

 

On more than one occasion

You lit up the football world stage

Dazzling opponents with your skills

Leaving them full of rage

 

And now your biggest challenge

One that you have faced before

But this time will be different

A different game with a different score

 

I don’t know the pain you are in

Or claim to be a friend from the past

You must seek help from somebody

Or this chance could be your last

 

I cried when I saw your face

Headlining the news once more

Your body a sign of your former self

For your riches you looked so poor

 

Please seek help Mr Gascoigne

And pass this challenging test

To me you will always be a hero

Like the late great Georgie Best

Depression

The public face we want the world to see
Making us laugh for no extra fee
Tears of joy when we see your face
A hole in our lives that no one can replace

 

Why is this illness such a taboo?
It could happen to anyone, including me and you
Starting off as a low point, getting worse by the day

For all of our highs is this the price we pay?

 

A situation we can’t escape, there is no end
Sometimes all you need is a conversation with a friend
An olive branch to offer or a helping hand
A short step away from more sinking sand
A situation we can’t escape, there is no end

Sometimes all you need is a conversation with a friend

An olive branch to offer or a helping hand

A short step away from more sinking sand

 

Depression can happen to people who are quiet or loud

Someone in the shadows or standing out in the crowd

Be aware of this illness and don’t judge too soon

Goodbye Mork, enjoy your trip past the moon

Good Days Bad Days

Do you really know me?

What do you see?

Do you see the pain

That’s hidden within me?

 

When I have good days

I’m on cloud nine

Laughing and joking

My depression in line

 

But then dark clouds

I’m in a bad place

Hiding away from the crowd

Not showing my face

 

Out in the street

Everyone’s best friend

But I’m fighting the demons

Not knowing the end

 

I make excuses

Say I’m busy right now

Want to defeat it

But don’t know how

Thank You My Love

The past six months have been a journey

It changed my outlook on life

An emotional roller coaster

But you were always there, my wife

 

I’m unable to find the words to write

My eyes filled with tears

I would like you to continue fighting

For this I have no fears

 

Your life you must go on with

Don’t be afraid to meet someone new

For I only wish you the best

For all the happiness you are due

 

I’ll be watching over you carefully

Sat peacefully by the heavenly gate

Knowing we will be reunited

All my love your husband and best mate

One more step

It started out a challenge

But now it means much more

Something I have to complete

Before I open Heaven’s door

 

I know I’m not alone

And I want to win this fight

Just one more step to make

Before I continue my eternal flight

 

The strength I need to find

Searching deep in my soul

Fighting back the unbearable pain

To achieve my simple goal

 

As my body becomes weaker

Each step becomes harder to do

I know that you’ll be there

So I can take my last step with you

Close Your Eyes

You fought hard until the very end

Never complaining with love to send

A smile that always says I love you

Now you’re gone what do I do?

 

Hated seeing you in so much pain

Our tragic lost is heaven’s gain

A life so young taken sadly away

But don’t worry we’ll meet again some day

 

Your eyes closed as I wiped away my tears

My heart raced through the emotional gears

My head pounding as my heart cries

Goodnight my child now close you eyes

Pigeon Hole People

We judge people on what we see

Sometimes on what we hear

We judge people on what they like

Difference has become a fear

 

A young boy is thrown a football

A girl given something that’s pink

But what if that girl is a football god

It makes you sit up and think

 

Someone who like musicals

Is judged on that genre alone

Similar to someone liking comic con

The judgement has stayed not flown

 

Is there a tick list somewhere?

That tells you what you must like

Maybe we should rip this list up

And tell people to get on their bike

There will be an answer

When you think there is no one turn to

And you have no more questions to ask

Find your inner strength

And begin to answer the task

 

You may seem out of sorts and lost

Thinking the world is fighting against you

Find that special friend

There love will give you a clue

 

When life gets hard and becomes too much

And you breakdown and want to give in

Look up to the sky

Believe this is a fight you can win

 

For every problem there is a solution

We may not always see straight away

Think outside the box

And the answer will come your way

The Teenage Years

It all starts off sweet and innocent

At the grand age of thirteen

Then suddenly without warning

It becomes this unstoppable machine

 

Wanting to stay out too late

And wearing clothes too old

Never coming home on time

And never do what they are told

 

They don’t want to be seen

Around the town with only you

And when you shout there name

They look away to a different view

 

Their emotions always unbalanced

All they do is scream and shout

Believing they are always right

Their thoughts are never in doubt

 

But as they get older and wiser

And realise what they’ve done

You forgive them without question

As they’ll always be your daughter or son

Another Sleepless Night

Lying in bed my mind still awake

Not wanting my body to get a simple break

Thinking thoughts that nobody knows

My mind like a waterfall that always flows

 

Thoughts about a loved one that’s moved away

Not knowing if she’ll come back soon some day

A missed chance to tell her how I really feel

Hoping she reads my statement of appeal

 

Thoughts about a bill you can no longer pay

A phone call begging to leave it one more day

A promise to a friend that you’ll pay it all back

The heartache knowing that you’ll probably get the sack

 

An unexpected text arrives in the middle of the night

Struggling to find your phone in the dim morning light

News has arrived saying that a loved one needs to talk

Your thoughts now sprinting no longer a steady walk

 

And now as we approach another sleepless night

The morning sun in the distance not quite in sight

My thoughts begin to open my sleepless door

Unable to do anything I’ve been here before

Please don’t judge

When looking at a person what do you see

Someone different, different from me

We don’t know the struggles they have met

Some of their struggles we just won’t get

 

Everyone one of us has a story to tell

Sometime we all want to stop and yell

Trying to be strong and brave from the outside

One more challenge will confirm our landslide

 

The single parent who has had no sleep

Working all hours without saying a peep

A difficult child making noise in the street

Parents trying hard not to admit defeat

 

So please don’t judge people from a simple look

Just as we shouldn’t look at a cover to judge a book

People have struggles every day and every night

We should try and help and make a wrong a right

You Don’t Know Me

I see you name and my heart skips a beat

I still haven’t yet accepted defeat

Your eyes only see what they want you to see

You see my name but you don’t know me

 

You’ve seen the character I like to portray

You see for me life is better this way

It’s now time for that character to finally flee

It’s time for you to get to know the real me

 

How can a guy like me get a girl like you?

When it comes to it I haven’t a clue

I’ve hinted my intentions but then turn shy

Even in pictures I can’t look into your eye

 

You don’t know that I could be the only one

Give me a chance, if it doesn’t work, then I’m gone

You don’t know that I admire you from a far

To me you’ll always be the brightest star

 

When we speak the conversation quickly dries up

I come across as an idiot and hide behind my cup

Your beauty makes me mess up my bubbling speech

Are you the girl that is clearly out of my reach?

The World Cup

Every four years we hope they can deliver

Hoping to make the other teams quiver

A new star will emerge from the competition

Ready to pounce and beat the others into submission

 

As a young child I watched my heroes perform

Gracing the field while around there was a storm

Players from different countries I’d never seen before

Watching so many games making my eyes very sore

 

Players I’ve never heard of and names I can’t pronounce

Shouting loudly at the defenders not to let the ball bounce

Strikers shooting and creating wonderful goals

Players diving and doing numerous roles

 

The passion, the parties and the BBQ fire

The final game going down to the wire

An England victory would go down so well

But think we need a wizard to cast a winning spell!