Not As I’d Planned

Do we all have a plan?

Who sets it out?

How do we know

What’s all about?

 

Chorus

Not as I’d planned

What went wrong

Sitting here alone

Writing this song

 

All that has gone

I haven’t a chance

The moment has past

To have a first dance

 

Bridge

It should have been me with the children and wife

It should have been me living as a family, loving life

 

A second chance

Doesn’t come along

Have I failed?

Is something wrong?

Goodbye to Love

The time has come, I always knew it would

But still seeing you walk away hurt

Could we turn back to the way we were

But then again even that’s not a cert

 

Everytime you walked out of the house

I prayed that you would return to me

In the back of my mind the doubt was there

Listening to others about what they see

 

Chorus

Goodbye to love will I ever see you again

Love has left what will remain

My heart once overflowing with you

Is now empty, broken in two

 

Bridge

I’m sorry that I wasn’t good enough, I gave our love my all

So many highs in our lives, I now face the lonely fall

 

So what happens now, how do we move on

I only want what’s best for you

If it doesn’t include me then that’s something I have to face

But believe me it will be hard to do

 

 

Lost

Walking the streets at night in the cold pouring rain

Don’t know what to do but feeling heart broken pain

Street lamps like a runway, I want to take flight

But leaving you behind just doesn’t feel right

 

Chorus

I’m lost not knowing where to turn

I’m lost not knowing what to do

I’m lost searching for a sign

I’m lost wanting to find you

 

It’s a lonely long walk, I’m wandering all alone

My head is spinning, my heart continues to moan

A thunder bolt in my body, two worlds collide

Which one will speak louder? which one will hide?

 

Bridge

How can I find you when I don’t know where to look

Your glance was a chance that I should have surely took

 

Dark shadows teasing, not easing my troubled mind

Sunrise starting slowly, allowing shadows to unwind

Thoughts become clearer, the light shows me the way

Could there be a happy ending to this glorious day?

Crossed Paths

There we were on two separate journeys

Our lives mapped out ahead

Focus and driven our success was measured

Keep going the quiet voice said

 

At two different points our paths crossed

Uncertain we’d both get along

Suddenly realised we were two lost souls

Life before, it seemed so wrong

 

Our life Journey now morphed into one

With the path so clear and bright

A guide from the past showing us the way

Together our life seemed so right

 

We’re not denying there will be challenges

Some hurdles put in our way

But we will always be thankful to the lord

That our paths crossed that day

Butterflies

If I only got to live for a day

Undoubtedly I spend it with you

Laughing, smiling and maybe a kiss

The day would be perfect and true

 

I ‘d tell you a joke, we’d both laugh

Tears rolling down our face

Hand in hand we’d begin to stroll

Walking the perfect pace

 

We’d stop for a moment to take it in

Our eyes would finally meet

Love flowing back and forth

Two hearts with only one beat

 

Dusk will fall, the night sky set

The town lights a beautiful sight

I’d take you warmly in my arms

And kiss you a loving goodnight

 

How do you feel?

Trying to catch your wondering eyes

To see if your pupils dilate

Searching for that special sign

That conveys love and not hate

 

The gentle touch of your hand

Sending my mind racing

The feelings of uncertainty

That you should be replacing

 

The question that never gets asked

Needs to be answered, no doubt

But how can a pluck up the courage

To ask this beautiful girl out

 

I look in the mirror in the hall

Understanding what you must see

An amazing girl like you

Would have nothing to do with me

 

More questions than answers arise

What is the relationship deal?

One thing I need to see

A sign to show me how you feel

Broken

On the outside I look calm and content

No worries that will ever  be seen

But inside I’m hurting, a broken man

Tired and alone unable to come clean

 

Secrets and lies that only a few know

A mask that the public only see

Wanting to escape, trapped in a world

Please tell me when will I be free

 

Frustration, hatred and love at once

A conflict I fight everyday

How to over come these broken issues

Continuing the struggle what to say

 

Broken life with no obvious quick fix

Normality is not an option

One day people will find out the truth

For now, only their perception  

Meerkats Poem

Meerkats Poem

 

Meerkats are a wonderful class

Always there helping and caring

They asked me to write something nice

So listen if you’re daring!

 

Alana gives out dinner bands

She is always on the ball

Megan always tells me off

And drives me up the wall

 

Callum forgets to change his shoes

It happens everyday

Emily is the quiet one

Who doesn’t have much to say

 

Paul has a little cheeky grin

Who likes to play a fool

While Connor is always tired

He doesn’t like Mondays at school

 

Olivia always wants to help

And has a sensitive side

Dillon is the technical one

He is our best I.T. guide

 

Francis likes to tell a joke

And laughs along with me

Tom knows his 4 times table

So ask him what is four times three

 

Hannah has great maths skills

She gets the answers right

Ciaran is very competitive

But doesn’t take getting beat light

 

Conner gives great big hugs

To show how much he cares

Keith tries his best to be good

But is let down by one of his dares

 

Eva is a caring child

Who shows kindness to everyone

Sam forgets many things

But remembers when they’re gone

Casey is a football player

She is the best girl around

Millie is the sensible one

Who’s attitude is always sound

 

Kodie loves to draw pictures

Sometimes from his mind

Brodie always gives her best

And always speaks her mind

 

Wiktoria is our translator

Who helps other children out

Kevin gets on with his work

And never shouts it out

 

Georgie show perseverance

Trying hard to do his best

Lyle talks a hundred miles an hour

And never gives her tongue a rest

 

Reece writes so very very small

It’s difficult to see his work

Sophie has a love of horses

Her pictures make me smirk

 

Samantha is very organised

She keeps me on my toes

Brogan brings in bacon on toast

So my stomach always grows

 

Mikolaj is quite laid back

He is always so carefree

These children are the best in the school

Wouldn’t you all agree!

This Time of Year

People laughing full of Christmas cheer

Some people haunted by this time of year

The past hurts us more than we’ll ever know

Memories return we just can’t let them go

 

Family and friends who have sadly passed on

The feelinngs of love, they’re never gone

Wanting to hold them with a loving embrace

Oh to have that chance to stand face to face

 

People who are lonely fighting back the tears

Drowning their sorry thoughts in spirits and beers

That’s not the answer, the escape is short lived

They don’t want sympathy, just the time you can give

 

Children watching their friends with the best toys

Desperately searching inside for their broken joys

Parents over spending forcing themselves in debt

Not realising the bank will never forget

 

 

Our hearts go out to the Christmas advert on tv

Plucking at our heart strings hoping that we’d all agree

This year a penguin and a football match in no man’s land

The power of advertisements, the power of the brand

 

Christmas day, a full table with an empty chair

A place set to show how much we always care

A time for reflection, love and peace

A time for all the fighting finally to cease

Walk Away

You know how I feel about you, that was never in any doubt

We knew it would be difficult but we would never scream and shout

Our love grew stronger throughout the times, both good and bad

I always thought we would survive because I knew the love we had

 

Every time I looked at you or held your hand so tight

I always felt the luckiest man and it always felt so right

I never thought the day would come when we walked a different path

I never thought I see a frown where I once made you laugh

 

You had a choice that you had to make, I was always going to lose

I didn’t think that your family would ever make you choose

I understand although it’s hard but what will be will be

You tried hard to compromise but your family wouldn’t agree

 

I gave my loving heart to you and it will always have an open door

We cried at our decision and couldn’t believe what we had to endure  

I wish you love and happiness and in my heart you’ll always stay

But I’ll never forget that moment that I had to walk silently away

Four Walls

Another holiday season upon us

Gatherings commence

Shopping becomes such a fuss

Spending every pound and pence

 

Arriving back home to an empty house

The coldness fills the air

Haunting silence broken by a mouse

Scurrying totally unaware

 

These four walls become my friend

Speaking intensively

My thoughts I begin to surrender

Listening comprehensively

 

Another day over, back at the wall

My hopes I gladly invest

Praying silently that I won’t fall

These walls they know me best

Foolish Love

Thought that this was a sign sent from heaven above

Who would have thought that I would eventually fall in love

The moment I saw you I didn’t need a second glance

Just enough courage inside to think that I had a chance

 

I don’t think I ever believed in love at first sight

But the moment you came into my life I knew it was right

That warm sensation that I have just hearing your beautiful name

Would be great to play doubles for once and leave the single game

 

But my love and affection you didn’t really want to see

You played me like a fool but you didn’t want to hurt me

Again I’ve been a fool who thought that this time it would be true

I thought I found something special I thought it was you

 

I thought meeting you would be the final piece of my life jigsaw

Most parts of my life feel so rich but my love life is still so poor

Do you only have one chance of meeting the right person for you?

I honestly believe that I’ll never meet anyone who is as special as you