She’s gone

I will always be there

Whenever you’re in need

I watched you grow so beautifully

From that tiny helpless seed

I’ve given you my friendship

But I wanted so much more

If you ever want to return

I’ll leave that open door

Chorus

She’s gone

Moved away

Won’t come back, not today

It hurts inside

My heart is bleeding

But I’ll never give up

I’ll always keep believing

I’ve wiped away my tears

It’s hard to see you go

I try to keep my chin up

But my heart is at an all time low

Just to hold your hand once more

To feel you next to me

I stare into your eyes

But it’s only friendship that you see

Bridge

Is it too late?

She could have been the one

I wish I could tell her how I feel

But now she’s gone

I would pick her up

When she was feeling down

I’d make her laugh

Pretending I was a clown

She would call me her other half

I felt I was her boyfriend

I was on to of the world

Now the world is about to end

Next

Wasting time just waiting for that one ray of sunshine

Another lifeless graduate to join the never ending line

They all look the same and tell me the same old story

They don’t want the hard work but they want all the glory

The days are getting longer as another hopeful passes by

Rejection they can’t take they just run away and cry

Built up by their families all wanting them to succeed

But we all know what they want – the fame and the greed

Chorus (1)

Another talent

Another hopeful

Another kid just wanting fame

You haven’t got it

You’ll never have it

I don’t even know your name

These corridors full of people who will never make the grade

There only hope is a summer in another Disney parade

Get your heads out of the books if you want to go far

Life experiences of ups and downs will make you a star

Bridge

Shouting next is becoming boring and tiring

I need someone to get my cylinders firing

Now I see her, someone different, she has that certain spark

A glimmer of light shinning through the endless corridor of dark

Her perfect hair, her perfect face a perfect combination

Can she act? Can she dance? She’ll be the latest sensation

Chorus (2)

She’s a talent

She’s our hopeful

Another kid just wanting fame

She almost got it

She’ll soon have it

I need to know her name

Everyday the same

We all get up early to do our daily chores

Ironing and washing and sometimes cleaning doors

Tidying up for the visitors we never do see

This isn’t living; this isn’t a future for me

Breakfast at 7 then a packed lunch in our hand

The routine I hate, why can’t they understand

I meet the same people and we say the same things

Are we just puppets performing boredom on strings?

Chorus

Everyday the same

Nothing happens here

Going through the motion

My life I have to steer

I have to escape

This world that surrounds me

I have dreams I wan to live

Why can’t they see?

My mum always saying ‘you’ll not amount to much’

Like a rabbit wanting to escape I’m trapped inside this hutch

A brother whose dreams were dashed early on

I still have hopes and dreams that haven’t yet gone

Bridge

This can’t be our lives, this can’t be our existence

I’ll fight the regime; I’ll show you my resistance

They all do a day job that they don’t really like

We can’t afford a car so dad’s out early on his bike

Tick tock of the clock a time bomb ready to explode

People walking down the same tireless road

Let you go

It’s the toughest decision I’ve had to make

But this is the opportunity you have to take

I can’t be the one who stops you and your dream

I don’t want to be the dam stopping your stream

Inside it’s hurting and I’m screaming my love for you

But on the outside I’m blank, wanting nothing from you

The tears I shed are memories of us leaving me

Your bright future ahead is all I want you to see

I have to let you go

I have to tell you lies

My heart is breaking

There’s grey in the skies

I have to let you go

Step to one side

I have to forget

You’re on another ride

I have to escape and find a way to move one

I keep looking around, pretending you haven’t gone

The pain of you leaving is crushing my heart

Why isn’t life simple?  Can we go back to the start?

Bridge

Will I ever see you again? Will our lives past once more?

I’ll always be here waiting ready to open love’s door

I can make it

They said I couldn’t do it, they closed every open door

Sometimes I was lonely, getting knocked down to the floor

They told me I was no good, didn’t believe I could play the part

Told me to go home, go back to the very start

I didn’t want to give up, kept holding my head up high

Wiped away my tears, didn’t want them to see me cry

I’ll continue to stand tall, take small steps each and every day

I’ll get that principal roll, live my dream soon on Broadway

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I can make it, I believe in who I am

I can make it, this is my perfect plan

There’ll be a bright star shining, the brightest star in the darkest night

I can make it

I can make it

I can make it

As another door closes, another one opens wide

I’m running round excited, my heart fills with pride

I’ve got to tell someone, got to tell my fantastic news

I’m becoming someone special, I read the audience reviews

Open your eyes

The world around us is crumbling

Giving us no hope of survival

But how can we stop this devastation

Is it true what was said in the bible?

Have we really lost our voice?

Are we too scared to say what is wrong?

People too scared to live

Why have we left it this long?

Chorus

Open your eyes

Try not to blink

See what’s going on

It will stop and make you think

Society is lost

Community now gone

Family torn apart

You’re not the only one

Bridge

It’s not too late to change the world that we live in

But who will step up and where do we begin

Why have we created a world full of greed?

Know one caring about tomorrow

Everyone wants everything in an instant

Bringing debt and more sorrow

If

If I held your hand would you hold mine?

If there was a queue to see you would you let me stand in line?

If I asked you out would you take the chance?

If the floor was empty would you be willing to dance?

If I ever let you down would you be able to forgive me?

If you close your eyes would you still be able to see me?

If I gave you my coat, due to the rain, would you accept?

If I bought you flowers would you say they were inept?

If I was going too fast would you slow me down?

If I made you laugh would you call me a clown?

If I smiled at you would you smile back?

If I booked us a holiday would you go home and pack?

If I climbed a mountain would you help me to the top?

If I offered you chocolate would you take the lot?

If I opened my heart would you look inside?

If my heart was lost would you be my guide?

I want to start a family

Seeing what other people have is hard to take in

I’d like a piece of what they have but where do I begin

The love that they have found inside each gently soul

Is something very previous and everyone’s life goal

I want to start a family

Pick my child up in my arms

I want to start a family

And discover their quirky charms

I don’t know if I’ll make it, don’t know where to start

I want to start a family

This is tearing me apart

I’m not saying it is easy but I’d definitely do my best

It takes over your life with no time for a rest

The loving smiles of joy that will never have a price

I’d give up everything, there is no thinking twice

I want to start a family

Play with my children in the park

I want to start a family

Tell ghost stories in the dark

I’m not sure I’ll be good at it but I’ll give it a try

I want to start a family

For this happiness you can’t buy

Bridge

I need to meet somebody who has the same values as me

To connect with someone’s soul, could this really be?

I want to start a family

Give my children a kiss goodnight

I want to start a family

Make this darkness turn to light

I believe this could happen, if I had only one wish

I want to start a family

I want to start a family

I want to start a family

Tomorrow

It only takes a second to spoil a moment in time

That negative phrase repeating, an uncaring hidden crime

Comments rattling around your head unable to escape

Too many things in its way can’t jump over the red tape

Chorus

Tomorrow is a brand new day filled with endless dreams

Loving smiles so warm they embrace the glowing sunbeams

Waking up next to the one you love starts the perfect day

My life now a wash with colour no longer a shadow in grey

Positivity ready to shine as tomorrow breaks the midnight

The morning rise comes and tomorrow feels so right

Too many people dragging me down need to move on fast

A friendship I thought was strong, now I know it will not last

Trying to move forward unnoticed but my life is like a statue

A gap in time, a moment’s hesitation is this the luck I’m due

Bridge

I want tomorrow now, Will tomorrow be never?

I want tomorrow now, I want tomorrow forever

Looking back I was foolish trapped in a life unknown

People trying to mould me wanting me to be someone’s clone

Now I’ve broken free there is nothing left to hold me back

My hopes and dreams back on tomorrow’s track

Escape

The highs become lows as the night begins to end

Searching for something to make the highs extend

You know it is wrong but the pull becomes too great

The urge too strong and now you will never have to wait

                     

A whirlpool of emotion swirling around in your empty mind

Love and happiness distant, an emotion you can no longer find

A lifeless bottle stands all alone, which you continue to fill

An empty promise to a friend, “no more swallowing the pill”

Tools that enable you to escape to a life you can only dream

Highs that won’t last, an explosion created, you begin to scream

Reality is that you always have to return to demon once more

A fight worth fighting, the nightmares rip you to your core

To carry on dancing with the demon not a crime but a sin

Taking that path of destruction surely no one will win

A poor decision is made, a moments high for a lifetime of low

Trying to escape like this is not the only way to go

5 more years

So we’ve had the election

The country has spoke

The blue team are in

No, please it’s no joke

They’ve promised more cuts

Privatisation of the NHS

People are not happy

The country in a mess

Education will be next

More ‘free’ schools on the way

Children don’t matter

The price we will have to pay

The poor still vulnerable

Food banks on the rise

No where to turn

More conservative lies

The north south divide

Continues to grow

The country on its knees

An all time low

People didn’t vote

Won’t matter they said

They couldn’t be bothered

To get up out of bed

People now rioting

Not getting the right press

This isn’t the answer

We all feel the stress

We have to move on

Five more years

We had our chance

Living with our fears

A referendum is next

But what will we do

Come out of Europe

Is that best for me and you?

Our children no hope

The future now grey

We had our chance

On Election Day

The C Word

Life suddenly taken out of your own hands

A journey taking you to undiscovered lands

Families becoming stronger uniting as one

Hoping and prayer that soon I will all be gone

Your greatest challenge, your toughest fight

Dark thoughts keeping you awake at night

The struggles, the turmoil that nobody sees

Another door to walk through without life’s keys

A writing blog gives you the chance to escape

Writing how you feel, the language takes shape

A message received and a friendship begun

One day we’ll meet up in the bright burning sun

Chemotherapy takes you to a place unknown

Your unenergetic body has finally flown

Each day a struggle, emotional and tired

Wishing to tell the cancer, “that’s it you’re fired”

Progress at last and a break on the horizon

Feeling better, your body is becoming less wizen

A loving smile back on your worn out face

Life so special now it’s time to embrace

Just like the wind life changes so quick

News approaches telling you you’re sick

Second stage and the cancer getting worse

Why were you stricken with this awful curse?

A tear for a friend who’s life has now passed

The love you showed will never be surpassed

The remaining three spent the day on the coast

Drinking malt whiskey and raising a toast

You stayed so strong right up to the finish

Your legacy lives and will never be diminished

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your story

May you always be crowned in inspiration and glory